Youth

Youth is so blasted confusing.

On the one hand it is a great blessing to be young.
You have a young body, and you don't have as many responsibilities.

On the other, it is impossible.
It doesn't make sense.
You have a young, healthy body approaching your peak,
but you're too young to do anything with it.
The world won't let you do anything with it,
and you're too young to know what to do with it.
But you're too old to be a child,
to be held in your parents arms,
spoken to like a child,
told "everything will be okay".

When you get older,
you look back at when you were young,
and think about how stupid you were.
Am I the only one who thinks this way?
As a 17 year old boy/man, I look back at my 16 year old self, and laugh.
I was a completely different person!
Just a year ago!
So when I get to be in my 70s or 80s I don't want to feel like I wasted it.
I want to live this time to it's fullest.
And I don't want to forget it!
I have the world's worst memory, as some of you know,
and I don't think it'll get any better as I age.
So, I have decided to start writing a journal of sorts.
On here, I'm going to try a more... emotional and vague look on my day,
just to keep myself a bit more private.
And I'm going to keep a more factual, event type journal elsewhere.
I'm telling you all this, so you can hold me to it!
Now that I type that, it doesn't make sense,
but that's my theory in any case!
Hopefully this journal can be a reference that I can look back on,
when I'm older and lost again,
and find the simple truths that I once knew.
Remember that I went through tough times,
and how I overcame them.
Or how I failed, and not to try something like that again.